Happy Friday, friends!
You know what’s weird? Fridays don’t really mean anything to me anymore. A few months ago, they meant that the weekend was finally here and that there was a good chance of after-work beers on our way home. These days… it’s just another day of school, and most likely an early night to get ready for work the next morning.
Yes, my weekdays are all over the place now, but I kind of like it. A quiet Friday could mean a Wednesday off work, which is a fine trade-off in my books!
You know what else is different these days? Frickin’ everything. I know I haven’t shared much on here lately… but wow, life has changed.
After quitting my job, going back to school and getting settled in my new small-town home, it took me a while to get adjusted. Ok, that’s an understatement. Not going to lie to you guys; the first couple of months after the move were hard. Let me set the stage for you… I was back in school after 11 years, studying something that I had never studied before; working at a new job trying to learn about things that I knew nothing about; living in a town where I knew no one and wasn’t quite sure how to balance the new lifestyle and schedules that both Carson and I had. To sum it up; I literally sucked at everything I was doing. There was nothing that I felt confident about and I was terrified that we had made the wrong decision.
As we all know too well, once you start down the path of feeling sorry for yourself… it’s hard to climb back out. It took a TON of soul-searching, a supplement or two (honestly), and FINALLY voicing my feelings out loud, to deal with what was going on. I’m so glad that I recognized how unhappy I was becoming, and made the conscious choice to deal with it right away, because it could have gotten much worse.
The good news is that I did get out of that funk. And looking back, it really didn’t take me very long! I had an epiphany on my drive home from school a month or so ago (while listening to a podcast, which has become my FAVOURITE pastime, btw)… I realized that I felt completely and utterly content.
I absolutely love the program that I am taking; each thing I learn is more fascinating than the last and I truly can’t wait for every new course to begin so that I can learn even MORE!! I also moved to a town of 8,000 people knowing that there was only one place where I wanted to work that would allow me to expand on my education and actually put it into practice. And guess what? I put myself out there and just so happened to show up on their doorstep right as they were thinking about looking for a new employee. Fate?
And now here we are starting a new year… already!! This year feels so different from other years; this time around, I feel like I’m already right in the middle of my “new beginning”. For that reason, and because I honestly don’t usually focus on new year’s resolutions, I am not making any new goals for what I want to accomplish in the next 12 months.
However, I am taking this new year as an opportunity to set some intentions for myself. I feel like setting an intention for your day, or year (or yoga practice – which is really where this idea all comes from), is such a beneficial practice. And this year, I have two intentions. But really, they roll into one.
It’s easy to let your thoughts be clouded with negativity. But the fact is that your life is exactly what you have made it. And no matter what you are dealing with… if you just stop and look at where you are in this moment in time, you’ll see that you have a lot to be thankful for.
I’m a “starving student” at 29 years old. I have days where I struggle so much with how the hell to study or how to get through my next exam. I can’t answer all of the questions that I get at work because sometimes I have zero idea what I’m talking about. And our new apartment building has terrible washers and dryers. Seriously, my clothes come out soaking wet.
BUT… I am building the life that I want. Carson and I are happy and healthy. We have amazing friends and family. We are truly following our dreams. We can live on less because we don’t need more. I have the ability to learn more every single day, both at work and at school. And I AM learning!
I am present. I am thankful.
And one day I’ll have my own washing machine again.
Now what about all of you? I would love to hear if any of you have set intentions for yourself this year… so please share below!
I’m off to school now, and then I’m spending the weekend in Penticton with my beautiful family. How lucky am I?! Have an amazing weekend, everyone!!